My Response...

...to a buddy checking up on me: 


"Hey man, I appreciate you asking. 

It's going alright. It would be going great other than a bind I have entangled myself with my National Guard unit. Other than that, I am starting to handle things. 

Well...

I have a serious alcohol issue. I have it managed whereas I only drink now on nights I do not work during the following days. But I should quit altogether. I have an addictive tendency unlike any I have seen before. Seriously. Like, outside alcohol, my thing now is running. And today? Every minute I wasn't working, or drinking, I ran. Multiple times a day, at an 8.0 mph pace or better. 

Imagine that same tenacity and apply it to drinking, and you see why I should quit. Even if it is somewhat "under control." 

Otherwise, I am going with the flow, I guess. 

I've always been super ambitious. But the self-induced anxiety of the past year has really gotten to me. So, now, I just want a normal life. No greatness. Just want to work, save for retirement, and one day obtain that retirement. 

It's almost like I am 29, and already exhausted by life. 

Wow. Not sure why I shared so much. But I appreciate your willingness to check in. I really do. Thanks, brother. Wish you the best."